Roxanne
My name is Roxanne. For years now I have been alone. Ive had knowone to speak to, knowone to keep me company and knowone to care for me or me for them. My family have been long dead but when they were alive I was never wanted by them anyway. Ive had to fend for myself for many years now and sometimes its been hard and sometimes its been worse. People say that everyone has there problems but my problem would be classed as one of the worst. One of the reasons this was, is because I was something different. A creature of the night as people would call it. As you can tell it was not all strawberrys and cream with my life. I have been 16 for a long time and never wanted.
About three years ago this was all about to change. I was out walking through the dark streets when I heard someone crying. I followed where I could hear the crying from. It was coming from the local park. I walked through the gate to see a young girl sitting on the swing looking very upset. I didn't usually speak to anyone but I couldn't help but feel sorry for her. I hate it when people cry so I sat on the swing next to her and asked
" Are you ok?".
She oviously didn't want to speak to me but im not the kind of person to give up. I repeated the question. The girl looked at me. She was quiet pretty even though she had mascara smeered down her face.
" What do you want???" she shouted angrily.
At least I had got her to say something. She seemed quiet angry. The type of person you don't want to mess with when their in a mood. I was bored anyway and not like she could harm me so I replied
" I was just asking if you were ok. You look kind of upset and you don't really want to be left out in the dark do you?. Something could murder you out here!".
I started to swing slowly just relaxing as I waited for her to reply.
"I was thrown out of my house for being stubborn if you'd really like to know!"
" Oh! Well thats not very good. I was going to Kill you but I don't think I will now. Do you want to stay with me for a bit?"
She looked at me very wierdly after I had said that (even though I wasn't joking). I thought what the hell its something new and if she annoyed me Id have a take away!
She accepted my offer even though she didn't know me. I think she wanted to get back at her parents or something and I suppose she thought someone who looked 16 wouldn't be a murderer!
I took her back to my small apartment that was close to the park. We got speaking and to my astonishment I found that I actually liked her! She seemed very nice and when she wasn't so upset anymore she actually told me a bit about herself. She was called Rachael and was 16. She had no brothers and sisters and she told me how she went on the internet practically every hour of the day when she wasn't busy! She did ask me why I lived alone and where my family were but I changed the subject.
The next night she took me to her house so I could be with her if her parents still didn't want her there. I don't know why I went. She knocked on the door and when the door was opened there was a big sigh of reliefe on her mothers face! Her mother hugged Rachael tightly and whispered to her
" Why did we ever throw you out. I was so worried!"
I watched them just standing there hugging knowing that I had never had anything close to that with my family. I turned to go when Rachael called me back.
" Stay with us Roxanne. You can't live alone!"
I felt something then. Something I hadn't felt for a long time. Did she see me as a friend or Was she a friend?
" I can't Rachael. I can't stay with you!"
She looked upset at my comment but then she said
" I will see you soon Roxanne!"
Over the next few weeks I became good friends with Rachael and she introduced me to some of her old friends. She had allready seen vampire movies and things like that and she had told me I reminded her of a vampire. I knew she didn't believe in them even though she had told me that she thought I was one. People are to narrow minded to believe in things like that. Good for me!
About 12 years before I met Rachael There was a hunter. He was a very strong hunter who had sucseeded in killing many vampires. Out of some coincidence he found me in England just after I had started speaking to the world again. On a monday I was sitting outside Rachaels house speaking to her when the hunter came down the road and stood directly in front of me. I know I could fight him but only if he was on his own and he wasn't! I think from that point on when Rachael saw that man standing in front of me. Pointing an extreamly sharp object in my direction that she truely believed what I was. It was no longer a story for her. It was real!
Rachael did not want to loose me as a friend and she didn't care what I was. With her help I was able to get away but not the way I wanted. I would of attemted to kill them all and die trying but instead Rachael made me run. But I ran because she wanted me to. I ran for my friend! Im not sure how many times I had to move because of that man but in the end he just seemed to give up. I don't know where he went. I think he was still watching me at that point but not doing anything. For then I would be safe to speak to Rachael without having to run away.
When I went back to see Rachael she told me that she thought I was cool. She thought Id be all the rage or something.
After a while I noticed Rachael was coming back from her school upset so I asked her why and it turned out she was being bullied and her grades were falling! She begged me to turn her. I couldn't do that to my friend I couldn't ruin her life. I told her to talk about it and after a while I think I convinced her not to want to be turned.
A few weeks later Rachael, My friend, the only person I had even bother to trust in over 100 years killed herself. Why hadn't I turned her? Why hadn't I even helped her. I think at that point I was willing to cry even though I hated crying and thought it was what weak people did. I felt so upset I went to find that hunter. The hunter had been watching everything and he had seen how upset I had been when I found my only friend dead. He thought after seeing what had happened that he wouldn't kill me then. Instead he wanted to leave me there for then knowing my mistake. I was alone again and never again would I attempt to even help anyone. never again will I fight. never again will I attemt to be a friend. I will sit here alone never loving and never being loved. Just like the thing I had done for all of my life except for that short time when I knew Rachael!!!
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